I wanted to take this opportunity to speak up for my character and for the TRUE STORY behind my book. It seems that there will be those out there after all this time who will find it necessary to attack me and the reasoning behind why I am writing a book which I take as a personal attack on my character. One thing I learned from a young age having to fend for myself in life on my own, is sometimes you have things and sometimes you don't, but the one thing you can ALWAYS take with you throughout your life is "Integrity", and my integrity means everything to me and it is not something that I am EVER willing to deviate from.
This blog contains some interesting, circumstatial evidence that could possibly relate my suspect in the Missing and Murdered BC women over the past 40 years to being related to the Zodiac Killer and there was a period of time that I worked relentlessly on research of Zodiac, personal connections that I made based on inside information I had because I knew this man for half my life before my child disclosed her abuse and subsequent eyewitness acount of murders. I had about 700 hours worth of research in my old laptop that I lost when Windows 8 wiped out my Outlook Express and various links and references that I had emailed myself for months was wiped out and despite hiring computer experts could never be recovered.
Initially I was going to write a book with a combination of Zodiac conspiracy theory and the story of our MMIW and what happened to my daughter, but later determined I was best to stick with the FACTS to best bring awareness to what happened to my child. the RCMP neglect and how my suspect may be involved in our MMIW. I had planned to at a later time perhaps write another book that would be dedicated to a conspiracy theory about Zodiac just because I personally found many of these conincides striking and just bizarre and I know many of you out there as well have found them to be quite interesting because I follow back my stats to traffic sources to other forums and such and see the topic being discussed and I know what many of you have to say about my blog and I know there is a genuine interest in the Zodiac conspiracy theory as well, however this story ALWAYS originated with the abuse of my child, the murder stories she relayed to me, the RCMP's inaction and neglect and my subsequent fight for over a decade to get the police to find Henning Lagies as a viable suspect regarding our missing women and to investigate him.
I have been lucky enough to have the support and suggestions of some team players such as Tom Raycove https://www.linkedin.com/in/tomraycove, Pat Bermel https://www.linkedin.com/in/onesoulmedia, Kathy Steck-Flynn https://www.linkedin.com/in/kathy-steck-flynn-53a71a9 , and Nina Helene Hirten https://www.linkedin.com/in/hirten, who have helped to steer me in the right direction, to ensure that I keep the facts as real as they can be in order to reach my objective which is to gain the public support needed to finally take this story seriously by the policing agencies, to investigate Henning as a viable suspect and to hold the RCMP accountable for their negligence in some kind of form, even if it is just by saying "We made a mistake in how we handled this child witness and we need to take steps to treat child victims of such heinous crimes with more respect in future." THIS WAS HOPEFULLY TO BE THE FIRST REAL STEP IN REGARDS TO MY STORY TO ACTUALLY FINDING SOME ANSWERS REGARDING OUR MISSING AND MURDERED WOMEN AND FINDING SOME KIND OF ANSWERS AND PEACE FOR FAMILIES.
This story continues to be followed in more than 100 countries in the world even though I do nothing at all to promote this story any longer and haven't done anything to promote this story since sometime in 2012 like I used to in various forums and via social media. I thank those who continue to reach out to me, to leave comments offering me and my daughter their support, the personal emails that I still receive encouraging me to go on and to never give up; I cannot tell you how much it means to me. It is frustrating to be trapped in this body that doesn't work properly anymore and puts such limitations on me that I cannot fight for this cause that has been so near and dear to my heart, and has embraced my soul as if each and every one of the victims and their family members have somehow touched me personally and spoken to me not to give up.
Any of you who know me personally or who have followed my story know that me writing a book has NEVER been about trying to exploit my daughter or our MMIW to make money for myself. This story was never about ME or about MONEY FOR MYSELF!!!! People who have actually followed this story know that I have stuggled for years trying to originally raise funds on my own to pay for forensics because I didn't trust handing over the possible evidence I have to the police without having DNA testing done myself first. I was trying to raise money for a cadaever dog and his handler and see if there was a way to sniff around his apartment where he dug out that compartment underneath his bathroom floor.... there were several things I was trying to fund. Yes this breaks the "Chain of command", for the evidence and would make it inadmissable in court, but the thing is nobody was listening to me anyway and this was more about finding answers than it was punishing the subject.
It has also been another pursuit of mine to start the JENN Foundation. Development of the JENN Foundation (Justice & Education for Nationwide Nobility), named after my abused daughter was intended to work towards justice and equality for all members of society, crime prevention strategies and getting kids off the street and creating jobs for People with Disabilities which is also near and dear to my heart because my mother was handicapped, I have raised a special needs stepdaughter, I am currently raising my special needs granddaughter and I have worked with or lived around handicapped people my ENTIRE LIFE. Working towards making change in our community agencies, particularly policing organizations so that all victims of a crime and their families are treated equally was a real goal of mine and something that I was taking on single-handedly to develop and implement and I won't have ANYBODY take my good character, my hard work and everything that I have sacrificed to find answers and bring peace to our families here in British Columbia, Canada without fighting for my good name and the TRUE meaning behind this story, until the bitter end.
Everything in my life has chaned due to this accident.... my daughter's daughter whom she couldn't care for because of all the ugly scars this abuse left on her, now suffers because I am disabled and unable to even take her to the park and do activities with her because my body doesn't work properly anymore. I have to hire people to take her out, but I am low income and can only afford so much. I have worked hard my entire life and until my dying breath I won't give up fighting for my cause, fighting to get better, fighting to reclaim my life and be the best mom that I can be for my granddaughter, but when you are homeless and couch-surfing living out of boxes it isn't easy. I have always been a fighter and I have always persevered somehow, someway, this thing has just gotten the best of me. I am asking you all to please remember the true meaning of this story and I hope that one day I can actually follow through on my aspirations so that somehow, out of all the ugliness and sickening tragedy, maybe a single flower may blossom and finally some answers will be found, even if out of all this the one thing I can finally achieve is CHANGE FOR THE BETTER TO PREVAIL TO AVERT SUCH NEGLIGENCE IN FUTURE.
Thank you everyone and God Bless.